Last-day-of -the-year Reminiscence

Year 2005- One of the most disastrous years, yet a memorable one. I don't want to delve into the social issues that came up this year; might cause an uproar or something. Instead, I'll just post about the changes in my life this year(After all, it's my blog).

Most importantly, I graduated from grade school and started high school this year. That brought a lot of changes to my life like more intersting lessons, a chance to meet new people, improved study habits (maybe...) and lots of other stuff.

I turned 13 this year. It didn't affect me that much, but each year brings about more responsibilities and their own privileges.

I gained new friends, both offline and online. As a child, I didn't have very many friends, mainly because I was aloof and too focused on academics. Because of the constant nagging of my parents and the "plots" of my classmates, they helped me open up a little.

I also started blogging on February this year. It brought a lot of changes, too. It was another outlet of creativity and emotion, which is what someone before suggested me to try.

My first personal website, Neo Wings was published. It's always on hiatus, but I'll try to revive it soon.

Usually, I just live for the present and future, but I guess it's a good thing to reflect on these things. I'm thankful for this year, with everything that it brought, and I look forward to the next year and all the good changes it will bring.

And there were a lot of other little but important things that I might have forgotten that led me to be what I am now.

Thank you to everyone who took time to read this post. It means a lot to me.



...I could just laugh at myself for putting up this post. Don't mind me.

I gotta go before they blow up the house with firecrackers. Happy new year, folks!

Christmas 2005

I won't be online tomorrow, so this is the second best time to post this.



Heheh... just a little something I worked on for less than 5 minutes. Maybe you can guess why. I made it to give even just a short greeting to everyone who happens to pass by this blog. It kind of hurts when you aren't greeted this season; I learned that pain when I got of the school bus at the last day of school. Well, it's time to be celebrate, so forget about that incident.

Everyone may be rushing with preparations for the celebration tomorrow. Some are doing last minute shopping. People are eager to unwrap presents. Carollers here are trying to get as much money as they can at the last night before the day. We're getting ready with the Christmas dinner. This season may get stressful, too.

Just stop and think of the true essence of Christmas.

Happy holidays everyone!

Two More Days...

...before Christmas. I'm finally in a somewhat holiday-ish mood, because of Misa de Gallo (one more day to go...), wrapping gifts for my sisters, and having to send Christmas e-cards to everyone. Everything seems okay, except the last part.

I was never that fond of writing to relatives, friends, or even to my parents. I find it easier to write if I know no one I know personally will read it. I'm comfortable writing this blog almost anonymously (there are some people I meet everyday reading this, too.).

I want to post something about Christmas, but my mind is preoccupied with things. Sorry about that.

Um... Happy Holidays?

Tomorrow's the 5th day of Misa de Gallo. I started attending it only this year, because classes ended early for the year. I couldn't get used to waking up as early as 4 o' clock, so we were late for the mass. It started late today, so we were somewhat on time. It's cold in the morning as we walk to the church, but it gets very stuffy when we get inside. Anyway, I'm planning to finish the nine days.

The air is very cold these days, even at noon. I caught a bad cold for the sixth time this year. My feet freeze and I wear a thick jacket indoors. I just wonder if it's only me who is sensitive to cold, since everyone else in the house is fine. I'm sick of being sick.

I had a lot of things in mind to post about this morning, but I forgot what those were...

I took this survey yesterday afternoon, just for fun.

You Know It's All About You (Over 100 Questions)
.:General Info:.
Name::	Gray
Age::	13
Gender::	Too naive and indifferent to be a homosexual, that's for sure. I don't like telling it online.
Height::	5"1, heh...
Birthday::	Sept. 29, 1992
Hair Color::	Dark brown/black
Describe yourself in one word::	Enigmatic
Describe your personality in one word::	Obscure
.:School Life:.
What grade are you in::	1st year high school
What school do you go to::	High school. You guys figure the rest out.
And where is that::	Somewhere in the Philippines
Do you get good grades::	In all subjects except Math
Favorite Subject::	the Science subjects
.:Love Life:.
Sexual Preference::	Straight!
Do you have a bf/gf::	Naw.
If so,what is their name::	Doesn't apply
How long have you been dating::	Not applicable
Do you consider yourself in love with them::	Can't relate
If so,why::	Why what?
Have you had your first kiss::	Nope
If so,when::	Never
Do you have a crush::	I did before, but I fell out of love
If so,what is their name::	Do you expect me to tell you?
Why do you like them::	Their behavior. But as time flies, that also changes. That's why
Do they know you::	Yes
Do they know that you like them::	No
How long have you known them::	More than half a month
.:Friends:.
Best Friend(s)::	Don't have a "best friend", though I've got lots of friends
How long have you been friends::	I've been best friends with nobody for how long?
Do you consider yourself a good friend::	Trying to be
How many friends do you think you have::	Enough
Most popular::	Someone at school
Most conceited::	Another person at school
Friendliest::	Most of them?
Meanest::	A busmate
Prettiest::	Wha...
Craziest::	My class
Oldest::	Grandparents
Youngest::	My little brother
Most recent::	Someone from another class at school
Smartest::	Everyone else will kill me if I don't put his or her name here.
.:Favorites:.
Food::	Pizza
Person::	Oh, no...
Number::	29
Show::	Haven't been watching much tv for a while
Letter::	R
Song::	Holy Orders- Be Just or Be Dead (Guilty Gear), my favorite song changes fast
Band/Singer::	Too many
Place in the world::	The cool outdoors
Season::	Rainy season, autumn in temperate areas
.:Your-:.
Dream Vacation::	Some place in Europe
Dream House::	A house near a waterfall or a mountain
Dream Room::	An organized one
Location::	Philippines
.:Last Time You:.
Watched T.V.::	Half an hour ago
Went to the bathroom::	An hour ago
Ate::	10:00 am today
Slept::	Noon
Listened to music::	Still listening to some now
Used the phone::	Landline: Months and months ago; Cellphone: Some time at 5
IMed someone/Got an IM::	Two days ago
Went to school::	A week ago. I'm on a Christmas break now
Played a game::	3:00 in the afternoon
Took a shower::	This morning
Hugged someone::	Last night
Went on a date::	Never
Wrote a letter::	A Christmas ago
Cried::	4 nights ago
.:Last Person You:.
Hugged::	My mom
Kissed::	no one
Laughed at::	Sis, heheheheheh...
Cried over::	My parents
IMed/Got an IM from::	Aya!
Hurt::	Myself
Talked to::	Sis
Spoke to on the phone::	Mom
Ate with::	The whole family
Spent time with::	Sis, again
Saw::	Sis
Missed::	My classmates
Heard::	Dad yelling at my sister
Played with::	Little brother
.:Have You Ever:.
Been out of the country::	A few times
Been out of state/province::	A lot of times, to visit relatives and on one school trip
Done drugs::	Never
Done anything illegal::	Never
Slapped someone::	No
Cut yourself::	A lot of times, unintentionally
Played an instrument::	Yeah. I used to play the flute and I fool around with my classmate's guitar
Hurt someone for no reason::	A lot of times
Hurt someone::	Yes, both physically and emotionally
Killed an insect/bug::	Yeah
Gotten stung by a bee::	No, and I don't want to be
Lied to your parents::	Truth is, a lot of times
Stole Something::	Never
Kissed Someone::	Does kissing family count?
.:This Or That:.
Rock or Rap::	Rock!
Singing or Songwriting::	Singing
Tennis Shoes or Sandals::	Tennis shoes. My feet get cold fast.
Phone or Computer::	Computer!
Biking or Skating::	I know how to do both, but I'd rather bike
Analog or Digital::	Digital
Coke or Pepsi::	Coke
Sprite or Sierra Mist::	Sprite
MTV or VH1::	Neither
R&B or Country::	R&B, but I'd rather listen to rock.
Cingular or T-Mobile::	Don't know, don't care to know
Cats or Dogs::	Dogs
AIM or Yahoo::	Yahoo
Bzoink or Quizilla::	Can't decide. I've been using Quizilla longer, but Bzoink is also fun.
.:Word Association:.
Birthday::	food
Peanut::	legume
Good Charlotte::	Tch...
Ravioli::	Italian
President Bush::	America
T.V.::	channels
Rock::	guitar
Rap::	noise
Chef::	iron
Boys::	sports
Girls::	group
Calendar::	schedule
Fan::	frilly
Evil::	a certain person...
.:Right Now:
Eating::	Air
Drinking::	Saliva
Watching::	The blinking of the cursor
What is on your mousepad::	NetTek
What are you doing::	Answering this survey while waiting for the other site to load.
What song are you listening to::	Simple Life (Guilty Gear XX OST) on the computer media player
What's in your CD player::	A Christmas carol CD
Wearing::	A red shirt and a pair of shorts
Time::	6:30 pm
Month::	December
Day of the Month::	17
Year::	2005
Day of the week::	Saturday
What website are you on::	http://www.bzoink.com (duh), http://www.guiltygear.com
.:Random Things:.
What color is your mousepad::	Old, dusty gray, which used to be white
What color is your keyboard::	Black
What is the phrase you use the most online::	...
Did you like this survey::	Yeah
Are you sad that it's over::	Sort of.
What are you gonna do after this survey is over::	Post the survey code
Do you like pop-up ads::	NO!
How long have you been online::	Very, very long
Take this survey | Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d

(edited: Dec. 18, 7:07 pm)

I woke up to some Christmas songs playing loudly in the kitchen while eveyone was getting ready for breakfast. The house was already decorated a few days ago, and there are kids caroling outside as I type. The last thing I did before going out of school was watch an interbatch Christmas carol contest and clad in a jacket the whole day. So why doesn't it feel like Christmas is in the air? It could have been because I was thinking of something else this week (exams, upcoming break, some other stuff). It makes this year feel different because I usually get excited for the holidays even at the middle of November. Well, I'll think about that.

Yesterday, I went to my past school for my sister's Family Day. It felt kind of weird staying there after nearly 7 months of high school somewhere else. I was already used to the freedom of the school I go to now. Now that I came back to check how everyone was doing since I left, I'd have to say that I like my new school better. I like it that the people there are more outgoing and in a crowd, a joke is cracked at least every 3 minutes. The teachers back there at high school now are also closer to the students and fool around. It made me uncomfortable to readjust for a few hours to a group who I thought were fun but I now find traditional and somewhat boring. My sister told me that there were some of her classmates and teachers were looking forward to meeting me. No one even came near me the whole 4 hours, not even one of my "rivals" last year. It just goes to show that things change over time. I'm not sure though whether it was me or the school that has changed.

I hope I said the first two paragraphs in a way almost everyone understands.

I now have an idea of things to do during my break. I'll try to update Neo Wings and PIWTHI at least once, finish reading the 6th Harry Potter, ride around the block on my scooter, clean up my room *shudder*, and study a little for the 4th quarter (yep, I'm insane).

Classes are done for the year. Yes!

After the tests, we had two free days at school. On Thursday, we freshmen had a Christmas dance at the night. At first, I attended for the food, but some of my classmates dragged me to the floor. Now, I don't feel too akward about dancing.

Yesterday was another free day. Guitars, laptops, watching the caroling contest and the upcoming vacation were the only things in my mind.

So, what do I do now?

Test week has finally come. Yay...

I feel a bit more secured about taking the exams after reviewing today. Wasn't able to yesterday because I hit the sack after arriving from the last of our Saturday classes. And I'm still finishing a one month homework which I just started last week. It's all easy after Wednesday.

Life outside school. What is that? :P I'll remember that soon.

The week of death starts now...

...Tomorrow, actually. There are no classes today, but there was a lot of homework given before the weekend started.

It's all because teachers cram, too. You think we students are the only ones who rush assignments? Teachers go easy at the beginning of the quarter, then they give all the work at the end of the week. That is the root of "hell week". All I'm suggesting is that they should manage their time as well, try to spread the work throughout the quarter and use class time efficiently to avoid rushing.

Nothing much happened last week. The only things that were different were the number of assignments and the very long nights. I feel dead.

I attended Math tutorials the whole Saturday. One at school in the morning and one by my cousin in the afternoon from 5 to 10. Sunday was the day for other non-Math homework and another tutorial, but I didn't get much done that day. Stayed up until 2 doing some of it. I was only able to go out today to the hospital, then a quick stop at the mall. Had lunch there and went to the arcade to play Guilty Gear, the only place I can find it. Looks like I forgot how to play after 3 weeks. Couldn't get past the 4th round. And there was this older Sol player who always starts a 2 player battle at the middle of my quest. Of course I lost miserably due to lack of practice. It was only after we left that I remembered Ky's moves. Man.

I still have lots of homework left to do. All that's left to do is complete everything and stay optimistic because it's just two weeks of torture left. Hooray for optimism.

This title thing is getting too tedious...

It's hard to think of titles for entries. Sometimes, I don't even posts about it anymore. Maybe I'll be adding titles to some posts only.

Sorry for not posting last weekend. It's the usual excuse again. I hope you people understand. I tried posting last night but it always had to be delayed because of phone calls.

I had classes yesterday, my first Saturday class. I couldn't help but think of my siblings and other kids enjoying half their weekend while I'm being mentally tortured in Math class. I was exempted from the afternoon class because of the confirmation our school organized.

The confirmation was okay. I learned a lot and was enlightened. That's all I'll post.

I've been feeling like a leader again, even though it just started with a project for one subject. Not too important, but it's just been an issue for a week.

Hell week is near. Yay...... It feels like it already because of the merciless downpour of assignments.

It's the eighth day I haven't played my Gameboy Advance. My sister brought Guilty Gear X to her friend's party without my permission and left it there. There's a 70% chance that it won't come back. *sob*

Justice must prevail! Your heroic deeds will see
through to the end. You're a hero and you will
fight for all that is good. Some would say
'goody little two-shoes!' right before you beat
your goodness into them and
say...'good...bad..I'm the guy with the big
sword.'


Guilty Gear X Test.
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Guilty Gear... *sob**SOB*

Anyway, I really need to clean up the 3-ft high mountain of books and papers and finish my reading assignment. Ciao.

End of Break

No!

Back to school tomorrow. Math homework, tests, projects, some annoying people, bad weather, traffic strike back. And I was just having fun during the break.

For the past few days I've been doing my homework (not exactly cramming, I did them on Thursday and Friday, coding the present layout, sleeping, being bothered by my siblings, playing some GBA games (Sword of Mana and Guilty Gear X) and not wanting to go back to school. I've already gotten used to waking up late in the morning and going out of the house that it made me feel like I was on a long vacation.

About the layout: The 2nd version is here. The header and footer feature a shaky picture of the moon which seemed to have a cool effect. Text is now dark blue. It almost looks like the template I used because I just inserted everything into it. I don't think it looks so impressive but I'm leaving it up because it has a more personal look in it.

See you on the weekend, if i haven't died, passed out, gone lost or something.


Kain Blueriver


Which Lost Universe character are you?
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Mid-Week-Long-Break Post

It's almost Thursday and I still haven't finished my homework.

Here we've been celebrating Halloween, All Saint's Day and All Soul's Day the whole week. From the usual like visiting the cemetery and watching Halloween specials on TV to hanging "spirits" in front of our house to scare the neighbors, it's just like how we celebrate every year. Tonight we almost went out to go to the cemetery. Well almost.

I'm going with my mom to her office tomorrow. Maybe I will just be tinkering with the computers or going around the building like I used to when I was young.

New layout coming soon. It features one of the photos I took a few months ago. Expect it a few days from now.


Yuki (Year of the Rat)


Which Fruits Basket character are you?
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That's it for now.

First Day of The Break

A sort of semestral break, actually. I'm really relieved that they still made one. Now I have a week off from homework, projects and staying away from home for more than 12 hours.

I started it by waking up early in the morning to watch tv, then go back to sleep. Breakfast, after that we went out. Nothing much happened.

What I'll do for the rest of the week:
1. Sleep in
2. Get back to drawing
3. Get back to badminton
4. Get back to editing my webpages
5. Do my homework >_<
6. Do the All Saint's Day routine
7. A few more stuff I haven't thought about that I need to do
8. Think of a better way of posting in this blog

Next time?

Last Week Stress

Just a few more days until our one-week vacation starts. But I'm under the weather, still. I still have the cold I had for 2 months and am sleeping past 12 am, waking up at 4:50 am. My scores in homework and seatworks aren't so good, but I couldn't review them because of too much homework. I'm going through my I-don't-feel-good-attractive-or-popular-enough mood.

I'm just updating to let people know that I'm still here. Sorry, I'll try to make a better post next time.

After The Intrams

It's back to regular classes for me tomorrow. Too bad. I'll have to face my Math grades, which I'm expecting a not so spectacular score in. I'm scared.

But the intrams were fun. I got to join one of the track and field events. I lost of course. Joined basketball and volleyball, too, mostly as a substitute so I didn't get to play much. What I did mostly was play badminton, take photos with my digicam (I'm glad I can bring it to school everyday) and fool around with my classmates, though I get lost when the green jokes start. I hate those.

A funny story about it: Three from our class were playing badminton on the road in front of the gym with a ratty overused shuttlecock. Every time a car passes through, we always have to stop the game to move aside, which is nothing new to me since I always play on the streets. One car stopped and the driver started dropping shuttlecocks on the ground. One of us kept staring at the shuttlecocks on the floor. The driver always assured us that we can keep those, and he left. Wow, are we really that worthy of getting those in pretty good condition from someone unfamiliar, or are we just pitiful?

So those are done, I've still got homework to do and stuff to think about. Next time.

Fulfilled

Yes! I was able to relax this weekend. I started part of my homework yesterday, so I won't be rushing much this week. I was also able to "improve" my drawing this weekend because I had time to practice. Finished some pages for a website and started making a new layout for this blog. The background will still be black. Now I'm ready for this week. It's the first time I've ever been.

Short post, huh?

Periodical Tests Done!

Yes! I'm done with my 2nd quarter tests. I think I did okay with the tests except Math. Not too confident about it. Nerve-wracking.

So now I'm free. Not free from school. Just a short-lived freedom, like what freedom really is. I could surf the Internet freely for a few days. Free to draw. Free to take pictures. Free to update this blog. It's short-lived.

Regular classes tomorrow. I was hoping that they would continue the Alternate Classroom Experience thing, but they didn't. Too bad.

This weekend will be more idle than the others. I won't have any homework, so I can just fool around. But since my sisters are having their periodical tests next week, there won't be any family outings and I'll be stuck at home tutoring them. It's a good thing the fridge is well-stocked, heh.

We're going to have intramurals next week. I don't think I'll get to join the sports; I wasn't made to play sports. My dad taught me how to play volleyball, baseball and a little of soccer and basketball when I was younger, but it looks like my physical capabilities deteriorated because I got busy at school. In elementary, everyone told me to focus more on my studies to stay on top. Nobody believed that I can play because I was more into indoor stuff (I wasn't really studying, actually). I want to learn how to play, but clubs and teams take the ones that are better instead of the ones who want to try playing, and time doesn't allow me to. It just ain't fair.

I guess that's it right now. I still have to help plan for the "photo gallery" project for our classroom. See you on the weekend?

Life at Thirteen

I didn't post this Thursday to announce this. I still had homework. So...

I'm already thirteen years old.

I don't feel any different from when I was 12. It just feels like another day just passed. Just gave the day a little more importance because one of my classmates is celebrating his 13th birthday as well. Besides all the greetings, it felt like a normal school day.

Came home and the party started. Ate a lot, did my homework, went to bed.

Now, everyone's already saying that I'm a teenager. I don't really think adolesence starts at 13 only. Mine seemed like it started at 9. Early bloomer. I going to stop growing while everyone is reaching above 5'3. Oh man.


Exams are near. Everything's cool, except Math. I failed 2 long tests (can I say even below 20%) this quarter and have only the periodical test to make up for the low scores. My solving speed is at fault. I already realized that and I'm working on it. The other reason is that our teacher gives the really easy problems everyday, and shocks us with an more complicated problem in the long test. He didn't even explain most of the processes used in the l.t. problem.

Um. That's about it for now.


You are a Loner.You dont live with a pack,you
prefer being alone.You can survive this way
just fine,though at times you just cant help
feeling lonely,even with the raven who follows
you as your partner.


What position are u in your wolf pack?
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Your are the Blue dragon. You love the ice and
company of others. You're mellow and kind and
listen to others to help them out. You don't
often get mad. You trust your friends and
family with everything and feel close to
everyone. You don't reject new people but it
does take you a while to get used to them.
You're just 'cool' to hang with. you should
seek a Green dragon for comfort.


What kind of dragon are you?[OK PICTURES ARE UP!!]
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Too Much Work

Stuff to do (mostly homework):
Math HW- Done
Science HW/Long Test- Summarizing, still
Filipino HW- Done part of it, will continue after the other one
Soc. Sci. HW- Haven't started
Long tests on Monday: Math, Filipino- Wha?
Drafting bonus HW- Desperate for extra points

It's understandable that the teachers are giving us lots of homework because the 2nd quarter exams are near. But the work is depriving me of sleep. For the whole week, I've only slept 5 hours every night. Nothing compared to what lots of people do, but I'm not even 13 yet and have more years of growing to come. (155 centimeters doesn't satisfy me!). The only thing that I can do to recharge is to eat, but I'm short on cash and skip snacks on weekdays.

It's a weekend now and supposed to catch up on my sleep. Homework just had to be extended up to now. My head!

My room is still a mess and my papers are all over the place. No matter how hard I try to minimize it, clutter still abounds.

So overall, I'm too busy to feel anything else. Tortured as well?

To cheer myself up, I'm singing(?!?!?!?) to some Japanese RPG music while working on the computer. Looked forward to the weekend to draw something, but you know. Can't go out of the house either, even just to walk around. So what am I doing posting here?
Answer: ........


You were killed during a mission or while trying to
protect someone and you died with honor. you
never regretted what you did and you are a very
brave and strong individual. You know what is
right and you are willing to stand up for it.
Even if it means death.


How did you die in your past life? (for everyone)
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You are a Natural Warrior

The natural warrior believes that they do not need
training but a good heart and a strong resolve
to be a true warrior, although this does not
mean that they have no training at all. Through
out history tales of these warriors are
everywhere, and if you dont believe me try
reading up on your greek mythology.These are
people that believe in folowing their
intuition, believing that all they need is
courage and hope.


This will almost be the most popular result, and it
is the most comon one in history and mythology.
People folowing this mold tend to be a little
self ritious, although generally not by much,
couragious, and sometimes a bit reckless. You
know who you are and that is what truly
matters.


The Warrior That You Are (or what kind of warrior are you)
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Before Classes Start This Week

Song in my head: Fate Breaker (Leyline Observatory theme) from Wild Arms 3. Too excited for WA 4th Detonator.

Yeah! I'm finally done with my Math homework! And it just had to be given when we had an acivity yesterday. The next few days will be a bit more tiring. Two group projects to lead, a reaction paper to sumbit and a report that is considered a long test. Still expecting more work to do.

I want to draw my anime again. My drawing "skill" (not sure what to call it) has atrophied because of all the work from school.

And that would be it for now. Notice the spacing? That's what takes up most of the space in my posts these days, I noticed. Hope I still get to update often.


You're Jet! You're anti social, and you're a bit
calculating. You won't do much out of the
goodness of your heart. But you're tough, and
you have a realistic view of the world. But
under that rough exterior, you're somewhat
naive. Although you don't let on, the fact that
you're different from everyone else bothers
you.


What Wild Arms 3 character are you most like?
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Post After a Long Time

Sorry about not posting. I guess it's nothing new. Just that I don't have the time to update because of schoolwork.

We had a break from regular classes last week. The whole school just had games, activities, alternate classes, debates, assemblies, and long free periods. There was even a Rivermaya concert last Friday (didn't get to watch the whole thing, though). Humanities Week, where have you been all my life?

And we're back to classes again for three days.

Today, it rained hard and the school was flooded. Worse, a cable burst when it got hit by lightning at the afternoon so there was no electricity for the rest of the day. No electricity means no Computer Science class, and no Computer Science class means I won't get a turn at Macromedia Flash.

The thing that I liked about today was that I got to befriend the other people who were "stranded" because of the flood and some others before I went home.

Another thing was that I found out that I'm in the Director's List. I never expected to be included in it. In fact, I thought I wouldn't be able to understand anything in school. It's all thanks to no hard work, cramming, intimidation caused by teachers and smarter classmates, starvation, parents' pleas and eventually threats, and motivation because of the extremely high expectactions of everyone you know. Hey, I'm already trying my best to stay humble and modest and tell the truth at the same time.

Nothing else in my mind besides my homework due on Friday. Reseach is pressuring when you have all the time to do it, stressful at the last minute.

Bye.

Heh....

I guess I'm feeling better than before, mood's improved a lot. Sorry for worrying everyone, if anyone really was.

My grades for the first quarter: Good enough. I got two 1.0's, can't believe it. And that's it.

I won't be doing much for the next 7 days. Humanities week, that's why. I'm looking forward to it, except folkdancing.

That's all for now. See ya.

........

I thought I would be in a better mood than yesterday. No... not as bad as yesterday, but still bad. Maybe it's because of what caused it before, an unknown cause or a problem tomorrow like folkdancing (I have two left feet) and Math (I like academics, but strangely, not Math) or something that might happen tomorrow. The latter don't affect me too much, the stress always wears off soon. It's possible that it's just stress or a chemical imbalance somewhere in my body, but my doctors say that I'm healthy.

I want to draw to release the "pain", but time never allows me this days. I'm either loaded with work to do or too sick/tired to do anything. I feel like I can't talk about it to other people like my parents. They might not have the time and could start worrying too much about me, and I wouldn't want that. And if I told other people, they might not really care or the other stuff I mentioned in the last case.

What's more tormenting is that I can't expel all the negative feelings I have. Crying will make me look weak, but I'm tearing up while typing this. I've always thouhgt that I had to be strong to survive, being assertive and sometimes aggressive and violent. But inside, I feel like crying all the time, when things don't go my way or when the world feels like it tortures or repels me. I don't feel like anyone understands exactly what I'm saying or thinking. The tears just won't flow.

I heard from somewhere that I am never alone. If I ever feel lonely, I should think that there is a reason why I'm even here (from two Wild Arms games, actually). I firmly believed that they were true, but my beliefs seem to waver when I'm down like this. The agony is just too much to take, even though the cause is still uncertain. But I want to see the pain end. Not by running away from the present, but by enduring it all, and the irritating things that come with it (check the stuff I listed at the beginning). I guess I'm ready to face everything now... maybe after a while to pour all the tears I've held back. Sometimes it just needs to be done.

Drawing... I did this a few days ago. I made it when I was feeling not as bad as this.

Maybe I should really express my emotions more, through blogging, art, or direct confrontation with someone who could listen. Aya, thanks so much for the advice.

So, I shall return.

Bad Mood

Please, you don't have to read this post. It's just something about me that no one really has cares about...

I haven't been feeling well lately. Headaches get more frequent and I get this lonely feeling very often. It could be because of the load of work we're given at school, but that isn't everything that's making me depressed. The unknown pain made me draw this (Oh yeah, I updated Neo Wings today. Care to take a look?). I guess there are other causes, some I don't know and others I'd rather not tell. I even had to force myself to update this, since I'm not in the mood to do anything but sit in a corner and isolate myself from the outside.

I'm very sorry that I had to post about this, but it's the only thing in my mind right now.

Test Results and Still Very Busy

The second quarter has just started in school and we're getting so much homework already. That's why I didn't update this blog for a few days. Sorry everyone. But I just can't bear putting it on hiatus.

Okay. I got my 1st quarter test results. They weren't exactly satisfying. I only got 70% in my Math test, but that expected because Math is harder in school now. I got a good score in Filipino even though I don't speak it that often. Social Science- 17 mistakes, no comment. Science and English are more of my forte. Got 12 mistakes in the first Science subject and 14 errors in the other (okay, so the second seems lower, but that was high compared to the average score of everyone in the class). Still waiting for English.

And classes. They're a bit easy now but still a lot of work to do. I'm supposed to be doing them now, actually >_< . I'm getting along with my classmates and my teachers and already know some of the upperclassmen.

Besides drawing, I've been into digital photography ever since we've been given an assignment like that for the art club. But because batteries run of power, it's a little hard on the pocket.


It's all good.

Busy Weekend Coming Up

Howdy once again. Sorry for not posting during the weekend. For once, I didn't feel like making an entry in this blog. Still unexplainable, but let's move on.

Periodical tests next week. I'll be studying for those and preparing my report due on Monday, see the evils of cramming. It's only now that school is becoming stressful. I guess I overestimated it, heh.

I think I'm coming down with a cold. It started a few weeks ago and has worsened. I'm tired of coughing already.

A classmate taught me how to play "Game of the Generals" today. I'm not really a natural at it (I won only one out of three games), but it's so addictive...

Neo Wings Update: I'm feeling too lazy and stressed to put up some new drawings. I'll try to squeeze it into my schedule.

See ya next week, if I would still feel like posting then.


Your element is Shadow: Indifferent, unusual,
gentle and a complete mystery. No one tends to
know quite what to think of you because you
camouflage your emotions so incredibly well,
almost as well as your thoughts. You are
unpredictable in that no one knows exactly what
your going to do or what your capable of and
you've made sure they never will. You are quite
the wallflower but deep down inside is a kind
and very intelligent person. You are capable of
love but unless you let some light into your
shadowed life you'll have a hard time with your
relationships. People are a mystery only
because they all seem too superficial, you
would rather be somewhere else, away from all
the noise perhaps putting your feelings into a
form of art, maybe writing your feelings into a
poem or journal, or perhaps painting a picture.
The shadows make you feel comfortable and you
don't like to step outside your comfort zone or
let anyone else in, the spotlight terrifies
you. You are truly a mystery.


.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Back to Drawing and Other Stuff

I'm back to drawing these days. My ideas are coming back, and I have more time to doodle, even though I can't seem to draw like I used to before.

I might be updating Neo Wings, my personal site as well as an art gallery, next week with more anime pics I've made. That's where I put up some of my drawings for everyone to see, though I also know that I'm not a professional at it. I might be posting some photos there, in case you're interested. Prepare for a total revamp, well, except for the layout and a few things, which I'll work on later.

As for school, it's still there. I'm getting bogged down by the assignments already, but everyone there still cheers me up and helps me go on.
Uh... was that me getting sappy? ........

Anyway, I'll still be posting next week, even though I'm running out of stuff to talk about.


Wow, you get this ending cause you got over half
the questions right, and I am surprised! You
might actually be smart. You might actually get
a good job. You might actually lead a good life
unless you turn out to be like the majority of
the Brainiacs out there on the streets with no
job because of their lack of motivation,
laziness, and boredom with the world because
they are too smart. Let's hope you aren't like
one of those and succeed... We shall see, shalt
we. (By the way, if you are as smart as you
seem to be, you would notice that the person
above is Albert Einstein)


The IQ Test! How smart are you really?
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Sick

I'm not feeling too well today. I've got a headache and a sore throat, but why am I still up and posting now? To show that I'm still alive (To those who want me dead, because I get the feeling that there are: Too bad! Hah!)

Even my typing is getting messed up...

Good life at first, but sad later on...

Your team is loyal and always sticks by you no
matter what. Even if some of them could be
snotty, they'd still care and always stay on
your side. More than one of them would most
likely fall in love with you, and in the
end,They'd even give their lives to save you...
You'd then have to live the rest of your life
crying your eyes out over them after it's all
over, but you'd later on move on and be
strong...


What kind of RPG life would you have? *UPDATED!!!*
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2nd Post This Week! Hah!

Second post this week! Very rare, those things.

So I wasn't able to post yesterday, like I said. I fell asleep before I got to take over the computer.

I'm still at home, doing nothing. I've finally started doing my homework, heh. Mom went to a seminar today and Dad is still in the province. I'm the only one here to fend my younger siblings from "Teh Eveeeel Bossang Aunt". My older cousin is supposed to help look after us today, but he fell asleep again. Life is getting complicated every single day. But change means adventure, and adventure is always a good thing.

We were able to name the five newborn puppies, or at least two of them. Everyone agreed that one will be called Pluto (TGQ-inspired, or Disney?). I named one of them Shinji. I planned to call the others Shinya, Shintaro, or Shinnosuke, and received a bop on the head from my sister.

Later!


You are Tamahome!


Which Fushigi Yuugi Character Are You?
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Genjo Sanzo


Which Saiyuki Character are you?
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Long Weekend

I'm off from school today. They're fumigating the place to get rid of the dengue-carrying mosquitoes. Finally. Death to all those puny blood-sucking demons! Nya-ha!

So, I'm alone at home with my brother and househelp right now because my sisters are still at school, my mom's at work and Dad went to the province to settle some business. It's kinda boring here. I've still got homework to do, but I don't feel like starting on it right now.

I might post here today if something interesting pops up later.

Ciao for now.


Master

You are the Master Samurai. You are putting
yourself above your Master. There is the Master
inside you. Master
who reached perfection and understood that he will
be reaching it all his life. You know
everything, but you say
that you know nothing, you can do anything, but
there is no need to do anything. You are
perfect.


::What kind of Samurai you are?::
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Slacking Time

Hello, once again. I'm here typing this post while listening to MP3s (All My Soul- Angel Links right now) when I am supposed to be doing my homework. This is how I usually start working with the computer; fooling around with it for a while, getting down to business, then playing afterwards. It may not get the job done right away, but it's the only way that works for me.

About school:

So, the load is getting heavier already, long tests are near, and the teachers are getting serious already (maybe not that serious, they're really fun), but I'd rather deal with these than all the house work during my summer break with boredom in the middle.

My playboy cousin keeps asking me if there I have seen some cute schoolmates at school. The answer is yes, actually *blushes*.

Now that I think of it, I'm finally happy at school. Back when I was in preschool, I would always cling to Mom when she brings me to school. Elementary was okay, but there were times I would get tired of the monotony of everything there and pretend I'm sick. High school is really fun (sans projects, homework, reports and tests. There all part of school, so I can't do anything about it).


About other stuff:

I ran out of money!

My acne broke out again. That's not a new thing.


And that's the end of Slacking Time. Until next week!
(Man, can't I think of better titles for posts?)


Justice and Morality: You believe in doing what is
right for others and maybe even for yourself.
People would consider you one with good morals,
and someone who would not let them down.


Which Characteristic From the Samurai Code Matches You Best? (You may find out your best trait)
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2nd Week report

Lots of homework now, and it's only the second week of school. I like school, mind you, but not homework. I've done most of them already, so I'm slacking off right now. Shame on me.

There was an error in my computer taht made me lose access to all the files I saved there. Now, I can't get back my reports, photos, html files and drawings anymore. Man.

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What's up with the age corfirmations on most sites, anyway? Lots of them require you to be at least 13 years of age to be able to view the site, or they let kids view it if a parent sends a form or something saying that he/she will be responsible with what the child will view.
Because of that, my account got deleted in a forum that I joined before. I know I can act as responsible than any person who is of "appropriate age" can be. And my parents know nil about all this Internet surfing stuff, so I'm looking out for myself and my two sisters who are waaaay below 13.
What I'm saying here is that we are able to see a person's responsibility not by one's age. You can see it from the way they act.
It would be nice if website owners have info forms that do not need so much personal information, such as exact location and user's real photo. It will also be good for those who want to keep their privacy.

(This one was written by a very familiar person who will no longer be regarded as a "child" on September 29 this year, quite far from now. If you don't know who it is, well... )

To the people back at the TGQ Boards who might be reading this: If not now, I shall still return someday.
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Looking for test results of quizzes that I usually put after posts? All of the files in my computer, including the result codes, are lost. Too bad.

SA-TUR-DAY!

Finally, it's Saturday! School this week was fun, but exhausting. I slept in today yet I'm still tired. Today I went back to my summer routine: eat, play video games, eat, do some chores, surf the Internet, help in cooking, eat, fool around, sleep. I got a lot of homework to do for the weekend. I can finish them since I have until Monday. I'm off on Monday. But that means I won't be able to go to school tomorrow, and I will miss some of my favorite classes on that day, and even worse, I won't get my allowance! This can't be happening!... Uh, sorry about that.

By the way, tomorrow is the Philippine Independece Day. Mabuhay!


You are 'programming in QBASIC'. This programming
language (of which the acronym stands for
'Quick Beginners' All-purpose Symbolic
Instruction Code'), which is so primitive that
it cannot easily be used for any purpose
involving the Internet nor even sound, was
current more than a decade ago.

You are independent, in a good way. When something
which you need cannot be found, you make it
yourself. In writing and in talking with
people, you value clarity and precision; your
friends may not realize how important that is.
When necessary, you are prepared to be a
mediator in conflicts between your friends.
You are very rational, and you think of things
in terms of logic and common sense.
Unfortunately, your emotionally unstable
friends may be put off by your devotion to
logic; they may even accuse you of pedantry and
insensitivity. Your problem is that
programming in QBASIC has been obsolete for a
long time.


What obsolete skill are you?
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*sighs* You are pitiful and look down on your life.
You are just sad and empty, longing for
forgiveness and yourself. Don't worry. As long
as you don't commit suicide, you're fine...


Which Digimon Frontier mental disorder do you have?
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Start of Classes: Tomorrow

Wha? It's time to go back to school? I've already been there last week!

But seriously, it's time to face more difficult classes, assignments, and group activities. It is really a privilege to get to study these days, so I can't refuse.

From this day on, if I seem to be neglecting this blog, I'm not. They say that this school year is going to be tough. If you guys are going to miss me, I put up my email address in my Profile already.


So is this sayonara? No, I'll be back at least once a month. I promise.

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Your #1 Match: INTJ

The Scientist You have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems. Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized. You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others. Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you. You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer.

Your #2 Match: INTP

The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.

Your #3 Match: ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

Your #4 Match: ISTP

The Mechanic You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations. A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent. To outsiders yous eem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable. You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people. You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete.

Your #5 Match: INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

What's Your Personality Type?

Rudy Roughnight


Which Wild ARMs character are you?
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You are the Crest of Friendship! You are kind, calm
and caring, brave too. You value your friends
more than anyone else, and would die for them.
You can be somewhat distant at times, and feel
as if no one understands you, but your friends
are always there to cheer you up! You share the
same crest as Yamato Ishida and Luna Minamoto!
(Me!)


~~What Digimon Crest are you?~~
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Auntie's Visit

I was typing a really long version of this post a while ago. That post wasn't published because the window it was in closed. Now I'm tired and hungry, so I'll just post a summary of what it was.

Our aunt's visit was fun and espcially educational. I learned about her life in Canada, the multitudes of cousins I have in my father's side, and lots of stuff that if write all of it here, it would take up as much space as my other post might have had.

After the Orientation

Our orientation for school the last two days went well. They said that the next few years will be hectic, but memorable. I think everyone says that, but I still have to find out.

A new school year means more homework, projects and the like. I've decided that starting next week, I will only update on weekends. I sometimes might post on weekdays if I finish work early, but those are rare occasions, as I have heard from the teachers. Scary...


You are Kurdis, the other Defender of Earth. Your
wife and child were killed in an incident which
also destroyed 70% of your body. You lost your
humanity along with it. Now you simply seek
revenge.


Which Disgaea Hour of Darkness character are you? (Pics!)
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You are most like Amakusa Ryu. He is the
fourteen-year-old bishounen and closed room
murder expert. His other talents lie in martial
arts and academics, being remarkable in maths.
Ryu is mysterious and calm, seeming to be
always deep in thought. In truth, he actually
is caring about his friends.
***S*P*O*I*L*E*R*S***S*P*O*I*L*E*R*S***
Ryu is actually the unwilling heir of
Pluto/Meiousei, his grandfather being its
founder. Pluto is an organization that helps
plan complicated murders, its members each
bearing the universal mark shown in the lower
right corner of the above image. Ryu only
enrolled in DDS to act as a spy for Pluto.
In one of the later episodes, he saves Kyu's life
when a murderer tried to kill Kyu, and instead
stabbed him instead. But everything turned out
fine, and Ryu asked Kyu if he could stay at his
house. Kyu agreed, and so did his mom.


Which Tantei Gakuen Q Character Are You?
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Squidward - Congratulations, you are Squidward! Hip
hip! horray. Hip, hip! oh boy. Hip, hip!
woohoo. You hate your job at the krusty krab,
you'd rather be playing your clarinet or
painting a picture of your face.


Which Spongebob character are you?
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Results

Quiz results I got when I had nothing else to do


You Are Koji.


Which Digimon Character Are You?
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Your Lightsaber is Blue

Blue is often associated with depth and stability.
It symbolizes trust, loyalty, wisdom,
confidence, and truth.


What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have?
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Global Personality Test Results

Stability (46%) medium which suggests you are moderately relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic. Orderliness (63%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun. Extraversion (31%) moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

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Traits Snapshot:clean, secretive, does not make friends easily, observer, hates large parties, risk averse, perfectionist, reclusive, solitude loving, more practical than abstract, does not like to stand out, high self control, intellectual, mind over heart, very cautious, takes precautions, respects authority, irritable, emotionally sensitive (I find it accurate)

The Past Few Days...

... I didn't get to use the Internet, so I didn't post anything for days. Sorry about that.

... went to a resort on the weekend. Fun. I'll probably post a few pictures soon.

... watched the last episode of Samurai 7 (Spoiler: Why did Heihachi, Kyuzo and Kikuchuyo have to die?! Something bad always has to happen to most of my favorite characters. )

... learned how to color my artwork using the computer. It's tedious,but I liked the result of my first attempt.

... ate sashimi. Good stuff.


Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.


What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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Your connection with darkness is through your
depression. Hated, sad and often feeling
lonely, there is only a few that appreciate the
real you. You tend to keep to yourself and away
from the world since you don't want to be hurt
and betrayed again. Music gives you the
understanding you need to get through, it's
your "therapy". Or you express
yourself through art or writing. Chances are
you're also an anti-social person, who only
likes being with close friends, if even that.
The world has finally showed it's true face for
you and you wish life wasn't this miserable to
live through. Maybe you'll find happiness in
the future, but right now you're just hiding
away from the world. Who needs people anyway?


What is your connection with darkness? (pics)
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Organizing Hell

I didn't realize that my room was such a mess. I should have, since I just throw stuff anywhere. Now there are old school papers everywhere, my letters were misplaced and I found Sis's garbage hill under my bed. Right now, I'm taking a break from cleaning it, because it takes so much time.


Van Fanel


Which Escaflowne Character Are You?
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Summer Break is Ending

It's almost the end of May, which means I'll be back at school before I know it. I'm not saying that I don't want to go to school. I just don't like the idea of having to have less free time for myself again. Better begin my countdow til the next summer vacation.

You are VINCENT. Remember to clean the cobwebs off
your coffin once in a while- first impressions
are lasting!


What Final Fantasy VII character are you?
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Excited For School

Seems unusual, but I'm looking forward to going to school on June. I'm not that keen to go back doing assignments and projects. I am excited because I'll be in a new environment which might be different from what I experienced for 7 years back in my old school. Maybe it'll take time before I get tired of school again.


Your eye color is dark blue. You rely on your logic
solely, and may have more mature interests than
many of your friends and family your age. You
can sometimes also be interverted and lonely
from a lack of understanding with people, and
can be rather frustrated with some types of
folke. Some may describe you as cold and
distant, and you are honest with how you feel
about things.


What Color Eyes Should You Have? ( With Anime Pictures ^-^ )
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Me, The Transcript, and My Pride

I went to school to get my Official Transcript today, which I needed to enroll in another school. After receiving the forms, I noticed that I got 3 sheets. The only requested for 2. I went over them. Then, I saw one copy.

Thoughts flashed.

"What? A 77% grade on an academic subject?! That's impossible! I don't remember getting a grade that low! The school won't accept me as a scholar if they got hold of this. Huh? I wasn't in that section in the fourth grade! What's with all these typographical errors? Maybe if I point these out to the registrar, they can fix everything. Oh, man. Too many thoughts in my head! I think I'm gonna get sick...",

But then, my eyes landed on the "Name of Student" part of the form. Oh, it was someone else's transcript which they might have given to me by mistake. Man.

It's too HOT!

Hot in the morning, hot in the afternoon, hot at night. That's what I dislike most about summer. The heat more irritating here in the crowded city (we don't have the luxury of being able to go to the beach or anywhere cooler whenever we please). I couldn't escape the heat, even in the mall or some place with air conditioning. I can't think well work well since hot temperatures make me unmotivated and lazy.

Cool breezes rarely come now. Iced drinks in the fridge are always finished up. My head's gonna overheat. Too hot.

New Site Link

Neo Wings

I haven't put up much content in it, so this is a bit like a preview. I'll try to add more stuff before classes start on June.

Your Birthdate: September 29

Your birthday on the 29th adds a tone of idealism to your nature. You are imaginative and creative, but rather uncomfortable in the business world. You are very aware and sensitive, with outstanding intuitive skills and analytical abilities. The 29 reduces to 11, one of the master numbers which often produces much nervous tension. This is the birthday of the dreamer rather than the doer. You do, however, work very well with people.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Mom Knows Everything (Now)

Last night, Mom and my little brother invaded my room. A few minutes later, she saw him scribbling on pieces of paper. Then, she looked at the back of the papers and saw anime-style drawings at the back of them.

And how do I know this? Later that night, before I went to bed, she told me that I'm good at drawing anime.

I feel weird whenever my mom praises. You know that your mother supports you in what you do, but you get the feeling that she might interfere too much.

But there might be funds for your new hobby. Is that a good thing?



Happy Mother's Day in advance to all the mommas out there, especially mine :)

Drat, The Housemates Are Back

It seemed like the best week we had for the whole summer. Our uncle's family, who lives
with our family, went on an out-of-town vacation. No one to bang the walls of my room at night, no one to finish all of the food in the fridge and ultimately, no competitionfor anything.

But last night, they returned. By the time we saw their car, we wiped off all the graffiti about them ("Auntie So-and-So is super fat!!!" and the like). That means we have tons of fat in the house that will lie down and do nothing for the whole day.

New Site

I've started making a website of my own, since I can't put all of the stuff that I can think of. Of course, I will still update this blog regularly.
I'll put up the link when I'm ready, probably within the month.

Visitors...

Sorry for not updating for a while. You see, I haven't been getting ideas for posts recently, and somebody broke the mouse of the computer when I finally thought of something.

One day this week, I was drawing a few characters from my weird fantasies (......), wearing an oversized shirt and ratty denims, with my hair like a nest as it always has been. I was called downstairs to meet my great aunt who came to visit for some reason I don't know about. My aunt introduced us to her, "Mano po," we siblings replied before putting the back of her hand on our foreheads as a traditional gesture of respect. As we exited from the living room (ran away, actually) our great aunt remarked about us kids in the house, saying we've all become fatter and scruffier than before.

Fat? Who are you calling "fat''? I can take being called scruffy; I'm not too fussy about my looks, and I didn't expect visitors. Maybe I gained a few pounds since we last met her, but I'm not that fat. You don't know fat unless you've seen our aunt's massive thighs.

That might be why I don't like visitors comparing what I look like now from before. But still...

To-do List Check

It's almost already been a month since my vacation started, so let's see if I've finished at least a few tasks in my summer to-do list...

1. Lose at least 5 pounds- yeah, like that's possible. That'll probably stay there for a while.
2. Organize the clutter in my room- done
3. Finish Growlanser 2 and Growlanser 3- check
4. Accomplish all my enrollment forms for the next school year (ain't it too early to worry about that?)- nope, I should get started on it
5. Finish Phantom Brave- I'm not even half-way through the game

So that's 2 out of 5 which means...
...
*sigh*
See ya later, then.

Oh No! Here Comes Boredom!

Boredom has reared its ugly face here again this week, and hasn't left me alone since then. Because of it, nothing special happened. It won't get out of the house even for a short walk. Now, shows aired at daytime are boring. It made my sisters hog the Playstation 2 from me. I locked myself up in my room but I can still hear the boring but very loud voices of my boring cousin boringly talking to my boring aunt about boring stuff. I'm bored, bored, and very bored.

Boredom: Prepare to experience the side effect of Boredom! Come forth, brother Idleness!

Gray:N-no! Get away from me! Noooooooo! (Hey, this is getting interesting...)



Number of times the words "bored", "boring", "boringly", "boredom" and the like were used: 14

Tagboard Added

I placed a tagboard in here. Scroll down and you'll see it under the Archives. I don't expect too many messages there, but I'd appreciate it if anyone posts there.


The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

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A Short Reflection

I knew I should've published this earlier, so I might as well now.

It was Sunday morning when I heard the news about the Pope's passing. When my mom first told me after I got up from bed, I was shocked and even denied it, for us Filipinos greatly admired him. The Sunday Mass was on in our kitchen as usual, but this time the news about the death of Pope John Paul II was being scrolled at the bottom of the screen. That was the only time I believed it. Somehow I felt guilty for not praying enough for him while he was in critical conditon.
In the afternoon, we were all watching the coverage of a ceremony inside the chapel where the Pope's remains were laid. I wasn't sure which ceremony that was because I arrived late. Later, I heard my aunt discussing the issue with her daughter. I remember her saying that it was good that the Pontiff was gently released from his suffering and is in a more peaceful place. I completely agree.
Now I accept the facts and pray that the loyal servant of the Lord may achieve the reward that he deserves.

Very embarrassing yet...

Now that the euphoria I experienced last night while posting is over, I find the last post silly now. Then again, I won't do anything to it since that's the only post I wrote very honestly and without editing it too much. One of my greatest achievements up to date.

When my body aches like this...

This time, it's not pain that I feel from the aches I feel all over. Actually, it is a very nice feeling that I try to supress and hide from others. It's the first time I wasn't so depressed this week, after many things happened. Instead of screaming while jumping up and down, I have a tendency to remain sober even when I feel extremely happy, so I think that's what happens when you bottle up all that energy.

Anyway, this is what happened. I won't be mentioning names, okay?
I was looking through a few listings I joined in the past, until I saw a familiar name in one of the FLs. It was someone from a message board that I haven't visited for a while, so I wanted to check how that person was. I visited their website and saw more familiar names from the same board, even one that I particularly got close to during my stay. What's amazing is that lots of them are from the Philippines, some even live near where I'm from, what a small world we live in!

This encounter makes me want to come back, even though I feel a bit intimidated when I'm in those boards. Yeah, I'll return, after all the pains go away. Now, my back hurts and it's getting late. I'm sure I'll sleep better tonight than the last one; I stayed awake for three hours straight in the morning, but that's another story.

Pros and Cons: Siblings with Separate Cellphones

My parents gave me a new cellphone as a graduation gift, so I handed down my old one I used to share with my younger sister and the SIM card in it to her. Stalker doesn't know about it, so I get to avoid all her messages!
Bwahahahahaha!....ahem.

As I am typing this post, Sis is bothering me by sending all these weird forwarded text messages she gets from her friends. That's the only downside of it.

Some more things to do this summer:
4. Accomplish all my enrollment forms for the next school year (ain't it too early to worry about that?)
5. Finish Phantom Brave


I am unsure about the Spiritual Element that
dominates you for it is that of Shadow...You
are the sibling of Darkness, Evil in its most
sinister form...You, however, are the purer
version of Darkness, without pain, without
suffering, and without hatred. You are quiet
around others and can be very serious when it
isn't nessessary. Your friends are what keeps
you happy and on the side of Good. Beware
Shadow Master, for Evil has many plots in your
way that may tear you limb from limb inside
your passionate soul...They do this, knowing
that you may become Darkness itself, turning
you against the ones you love.(E.M.E: Look away
from your problems and at the ones you
love...They are there for a reason.)


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Summer To-do List

(I was supposed to post this a week ago, but I was busy, then banned from using the computer for a few days and had to completely avoid it during the Holy Week as a sacrifice. I thought it's better to post it late than never.)

Finally, school is over. No more tests, piles and piles of homework, psycho classmates, schedules that drive me insane, and all those stuff. So, now that I'm on vacation, I've got lots of time to do as I please. I've started making a list of thing to do before school starts on June.

1. Lose at least 5 pounds
2. Organize the clutter in my room
3. Finish Growlanser 2 and Growlanser 3

That's all I can think of right now; I'll probably add some more a bit later.

About Deleting This Blog

I've decided to keep it a bit longer. I can say I got hooked on blogging and I get a lot from it. Maybe I was worried about it taking all of my time and sharing too much about myself.

So, I guess my life is back to normal... or is there such thing as a "normal" life?

I've Been Thinking...

It's been almost a month and I'm already considering deleting this blog.

I don't have anything to write about. I can't even find time to check it.

I've thought about it for a while and I can't decide whether or not. If I do, I might be able to create another blog sometime in the future, 4 or 5 months from now. I don't think I can do it right now.

Again, I'm still not sure.

A Challenge from a Friend

A close friend from school asked me this a few days ago, "Will we remain friends after you leave here?"Tough question. I'm going to study in another school, so it will be harder for us to keep in touch.
I wanted to say, "Are you crazy? Of course we will!" , though it came out different when I replied."Why are you asking me that question?". I think my friend got it wrong. I meant that, why would the kid have doubt in our friendship?
After that, I thought if it would be still good to keep a friend who is unsure of what will happen to our relationship in the future.

Yeah, I added something here.

Today I added a mood indicator and a counter (I'm not expecting to get too many hits, but my fingers are crossed).

Class Picture

Since the school year is about to end for us, a classmate drewa picture of our whole class. This is how a few classmates and I reacted:

Gray: Why am I smiling here? I don't think I even smile at all.

Migu: The teacher looks too kind!!!

Shimu: I'm not that fat! And why are eyes too small? Can't you make my complexion lighter?

Dynn: We all look the same, don't you notice that?

Stalker: Oooh,what a pretty picture! I love it! I am a fan of your drawings now! I ABSOLUTELY love it! WOW!

SFK: TRASH! MWAHAHAHAHA!

Everyone else: *in chorus* Whoa!

Crazy Three

What could be worse than having an annoying classmate that bugs you everyday, starting from before class and up to dismissal time? Having three of them! They never seem to let a day pass without showing up and bothering me.

Allow me to introduce them to you.

The weird one I call SFK* has been pestering me since the 4th grade and is the "teacher's pest''.

Second, there is Shimu*. She keeps serenading me with cheesy love songs and prevents me from escaping with her ''pleasantly'' plump frame.

The third one is the worst. The only nickname I have for her is Stalker*. At first it didn't bother me much, but she keeps on following me while mumbling, '' I will follow you, leader". Stalker thinks she knows everything about me and bothers me to tell her more about myself. That is what bugs me the most.

They aren't a group, but somehow they come to me at the same time and the same place.

Here is a sample encounter with the three of them.

SFK: Yo, Gray! One of your eyelashes fell off. Are you in love with someone???

Shimu: You're speechless, eh? Hahahaha! * starts singing a weird love song*

Stalker: Tell me! Tell me! Who is it! WHO IS IT!

Gray: Shut up! I'm not into anything like that, and why should I care?

SFK: Ooooh! You're denying it!

Shimu: Yeah... Gray's denying it! *sings some more*

Gray: THAT'S ENOUGH, YOU PSYCHOTIC FREAKS OF NATURE!!!

Stalker: Are you angry at me? *is tearing up* Forgive me, Master! Forgive me!

Gray: grrrr... Alright.

Stalker: Yay! Can I do it again? Can I?

And it continues.I really am a pest magnet...

* I used nicknames for them because even though the bug me to hell, I still have to respect their privacy. Not like they respect mine.