Back again to post. No, this isn't dead yet. Now, at the end of 2006, I look back at all the crazy things that happened this year and post drabble about it. Prepare for a deep sounding post, abstract and unspecific ideas that I don't explain, and a lot of scrolling.


For the first time, I felt hopeless about things.

I'm now dead serious about school. Yes, more than before.

I experienced being a leader a few times. I'm still not sure if being one all the time is a good thing.

I realized that you really need to see things in different perspectives to understand different situations (although being able to do it is a challenge).

I now angst and get mood swings. Oh, no.

I learned how to miss things. (Freedom from schoolwork.)

I guess I enjoy school now.

I also started to enjoy listening to music.

I now know how to swim! Or at least survive in the water.

I got ran over by a reindeer. Ah, nope.

I haven't been as hesistant to spend money on snacks and things not related to school (video games, stuff to read).

I finally thought of a possible career to take when I grow up. I still haven't figured out what course I need to take to get that kind of job.

I learned that cramming IS unavoidable.

I underestimated myself a lot of times.

I overestimated myself at a lot more times than I underestimated myself.

I figured out for myself that expecting so much isn't healthy o_O

I fainted for the first time this year.

I now know that afternoon snacks can be considered vital meals during school days.

I now like staying at school after sunset.

I now like staying at home during weekends more.

For the first time in high school, I found Algebra okay. Geometry was fun in the 1st and 2nd quarter, until we started on similarities :P

I've lost my sentimentality.

I unconsciously(?) rely on "time management". Haha.

I got to talk to people from my past school this year. Wasn't able to in my first year out of there.

I now want the power to turn back time.

I thought I would never get over this year. Now I think I wouldn't on 2007.

After this I realize that there are so many important things that happened this year that I have a hard time listing them down. Also, there are events that I might have overlooked that are actually significant.

The introspective mood is fading. Now I want to go back to the present.

New year's resolutions: soon.

Signing off.

Christmas Eve Post

I never thought I would be able to log in before Christmas.

Here you go, guys.


And that image was, as usual, lovingly(?) crammed. Yay.

Have a great Christmas tomorrow!



Signing off.

Has been a while since I've updated. I've been doing more this week than the last one. Let's see.

• Simbang Gabi- So far I've gone to the 4 masses. It's still hard to wake up early. Reminds me of school. The church is pretty near our house so we walk. Not much of a problem. The problem is when we stand during mass when the pews are full because the neighbors we go with take too long to prepare. Yeah, I go with my helpers and neighbors; everyone else at home is too sleepy and can't bring me to mass.
  
• Gifts- I'm wrapping gifts this time. Everyone else is too busy, and I'm usually bored. Now I know what I'm getting, also because I bought some of my gifts myself.
  
• Homework- *evil glare*
  
• Siblings- Brat. Box Monster. Play all afternoon. Wow.
  

That doesn't sound like I'm doing much. I have to get some things done, though, before school starts.

Not the S-word again. My eaaars.

I really think I won't be updating this thing until Christmas. Not too much to blog about. Be warned.

Signing off.

Hi. Still thinking of what to do this vacation. I've only been figuring out the XML, playing Magna Carta (I'm still not done yet), wasting time in the internet and sleeping most of the time. I'm not studying. Bwahahaha.

And I thought I would be updating this thing a lot more because of the free time. The opposite's happening because there's not much to blog about. Maybe because I don't go to school, or get to talk to people a lot during vacations. And I currently irritated by something to think straight. Might blog about that thing soon.

Maybe I should consider studying to pass the time :P.


Still bored. Signing off.

Three days into the Christmas vacation, and I'm still tired. I've run out of things to post about.

Not really. I guess the reason I don't have anything to post about in this blog is that I avoid getting too personal in my posts. I always talk about schoolwork and anything that I'm preoccupied with that I don't really talk about how I feel, unless I'm really upset. I don't even sound like I'm upset when I am.

Ah, well. Just a thought. I still have to think if I really will post stuff like that here.

Back to other preoccupations.

• Blog Layout- The XML coding for the page looks hard and intimidating to mess around with, unlike plain HTML/CSS. It seems like a combination of those two formatting "languages" and a programming language (like C++ XD). I might just be lazy to study it. Will plan something for it. I won't switch back to the old template coding scheme until I've tried out the XML.
  
  
• Adobe Illustrator- Does anyone have any idea on what I could use this for? I know that you could make vectored images using this, which could be used for web graphics, wallpapers and stuff like that. I just can't figure out how to use it, I guess.
  
  
• Video Games- Now is the time to catch up on this past obsession. I've missed lots of games this year because of school. Now I'm not really updated about the newest RPGs that are out, or at least about what's interesting to play. Someone help me with this. Either that or give me money to buy some games. (Whatever you do, don't mention anything about Final Fantasy XII.)
  
  
• Sprain- It's getting better. I could walk better now, except when going down stairs. Problem is, when I get up or move my leg, my ankle always hits something and....
  
  
• Posting- With all the time I have to use the computer and a new dial-up internet card (Don't laugh.) loaded, I look forward to posting almost everyday.
  
  
• Character Designs- They've been on hold since classes started this June. Now, if only I could find my pencil.
  
  
• Sleep- Yay!
  

What's a good way to conclude this post? Dunno.


Signing off.

Changed layouts, again?

As you can see, I've switched to Blogger beta already. I tried the new layout options and then... this happened. The pretty layout that was here before is gone. I'll try to figure out the new scheme for coding and fix a customized layout again. Either that or I'll switch back to the old template-editing style.

Signing off.

It's vacation time already. We're supposed to be relaxing because all our projects are done, the tests are over and we don't have to wake up at 4 something and sleep at 2 something every miserable day.

So why am I still stressed out?

First, my brother kicked my right foot a while ago. That's where my sprain is. It still hurts.

Second, I'm still finishing the first draft for English. Why? Let's not talk about that.

Third, I'm still tired from the whole year of hard labor studying. I had a pain in the neck last night that seemed like when you get high blood pressure. I'm scared.

Maybe I've lost all my optimism (whatever was left of it) during the past 7 months. *head meets keyboard in accelerated downward movement of the former* Whatever.

Signing off.

Blog Name Change?

Disclaimer: This post isn't meant to offend anyone else whose blog/site is titled Perfect Imperfection or any other site title in this post.

I've been thinking about changing the name of this blog for a while. Perfect Imperfection doesn't really suit my outlook in life anymore. I think I wasn't thinking right when I created this blog.

Though I still think philosophically, I'm not too vocal about my deeper thoughts. I'm still introverted like before, but I've become more spontaneous. I may not be the one who admires all the beauty in the world, but I don't abhor anything. Perfect Imperfection sounds like a title of a poet's blog and I'm no poet at all.

What does it leave me with?

• Gray's Place in the Internet- Can you get more unoriginal?
• Gray's Blog- I swear I'll kill...
• The Life and Times of a Person Called Gray - Get me my great-great-great-grandfather's bolo.

I want something clever, never thought of before and not currently being used as a blog title. Nothing that sounds so much like a fan shrine title, either. Suppose I combine words that I like.

• Turbulent Majesty- Fan shrine. End of story.
  
• Enigma- Fan shrine, band name, overused blog title
• Wild Tempest- I googled it up and found someone using this as a username. Oh, well.
  

I know. I'll name it after a song that I like. *looks at playlist*

• Fate Breaker (Wild Arms 3 dungeon theme)- The song sounds idealistic and searching, I like it. But the title is a little poetic.
• Sheep will Sleep (Guilty Gear Isuka, Sol/Ky/I-no theme)- Makes the blog sound sleepy...
• Psycho Killer (Talking Heads)- Run, run, run, run, run from the psycho killer's blog.
• Waltz (Honey and Clover)- Romantic-sounding title
• 100% Pure (Tantei Gakuen Q)- Sounds like a personal title, but I suspect someone uses this as a title. And my character isn't pure -_-.

While looking through the playlist I ran into a track called "Drunkard Makes Wise Remarks" from GG Isuka. It is a potential name for a "wise guy's" blog. Just remove the "drunkard" part because it doesn't apply.

• Calesa Hijacker Makes Wise Remarks- "Calesa Hijacker" is a random title I gave myself. There's a story behind it.
• Wise Guy Makes Wise Remarks- Sounds funny and redundant

Here I end listing down blog titles I've thought of. I might go with the "Makes Wise Remarks" thing. Either that or I'll think of another possible blog title.

I will change my blog title. The title "Perfect Imperfection" drives me mad.


Signing off.

Demand List

Here is an example of an arrangement of items that you remember to write during the Yuletide season (if you actually notice it) but because of it being posted on such short notice, money shortages, the impracticability or just the downright impossibility of the items recorded, all the items don't usually get checked off. For short, this is my Christmas wishlist.

• scanner (For drawing that I might want to CG; kind of impractical since I could use the digicam instead.)
  
• for my camera to be fixed
  
• no homework and projects for the rest of the school year (What? It's a wishlist XD)
  
• sanity (which was taken away by school)
  
• sleep (which was also taken away by school)
  
• some role playing video games that I missed to get after their release dates because of school and I want to play (or time to finish the games I already have)
  
• maintain good academic status and probably become a DL again (I'm scared...)
  
• a better organization system for my things (someone help me with this.)
  
• web hosting for a personal site/blog
  
• to feel better about things
  

I just posted this for fun, actually. I don't expect all the items to be checked but it would be nice if some were granted (especially the 3rd one :P). The list might be revised.