Saturday, August 18, 2007

Moved :D

To here:

http://infinitum-zero.blogspot.com

Change your links and bookmarks :D

I've been meaning to do this for a long time. To start anew or something. Or to get away from lots of the past posts I'm to embarrassed to read.


Finally signing off.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

It's just like the first morning of the weekday, where you are forced to get up early for school. You curl up again, begging for five more minutes of sleep...

A lot like the hiatus of this blog.

Signing off.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Hiatus Once Again

I'm going on hiatus.

It's the first time I've announced this without thinking about it too much. And I pretty sure I want to. I need to settle offline things first and motivate myself to write.

Signing off until around the 2nd week of August.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

I Don't Offer to Take Other People's Trash Out

Do I still look like a doormat?

Seriously, it hurts one's dignity.


Oh, well. In other news, I may not feel as busy as last week, but I should be. And I should be worrying about Math and "more important matters" right now instead of posting. I hope this doesn't call for another hiatus.

Signing off.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

I want my printer to work. I need it to work. It's got to be a lot easier to have your printer working than having to go to town before 8 pm to get school reports printed. You won't have to shell out 8 pesos per page. And you also get to print out any miscellaneous notes.

Life must be easier if your printer actually works and just doesn't sit on top of the desk, gathering dust and using up space.


Seems like the title input box doesn't work.

Signing off.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Ignorance does lead to mortal sin

Thou shall not steal. Or in this case, thou shall not plagiarize.

Which I did, unintentionally. I forgot to put at least quotation marks on direct quotes in my STR research summaries. One reason was because I lost half of that requirement yesterday and got it back a few minutes before submission. And that I was half-asleep while doing the assignment.

I wish these kinds of details on quoting sources, and the details and deadlines of requirements, were clarified a long time ago. I wouldn't have tried to jump off the stairs after today's class if I knew.

I deserve it and all the academic mess-ups that are waiting to happen this week because I'm being myself. Yay for self-pity.

I'm still in a bad mood. What a week.

Signing off.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

What have I done that made the universe conspire to make my week awful?

I'm such an idiot.

I LOST MY STR LIBRARY SOURCES, AS WELL AS THE INFO I NEED TO WRITE MY HOMEWORK WORTH 10% OF MY GRADE WHICH IS DUE TOMORROW.

I'm being an idiot this week.

How bad can this get?

And there's a pretty good chance I will start getting incident reports for these losses. And that I will lose my temper. And sanity.

Signing off.

Monday, July 02, 2007

The Problematic Child Whines Once Again

After cooling off for a while, the thing I was about to asphyxiate myself for seems like just another problem right now, and a sign I need to take anger and stress management seriously.

And another problem pops up. I just got reminded that the final draft for the Filipino essay is due next week. The next essay, which is a long test, will be on the same week. One more essay is due by the end of the month. And I remembered that I'm not really good at writing in Filipino. Finally, after remembering the other problems I have with academics, I now ask myself whether I'm going to survive this quarter with my sanity intact.

There's also the STR requirement for Wednesday which I'm not done with yet.

And I suspect I left my pencil case in the Bio classroom this morning. Does that earn me an IR?

What a horrible way to start the week. Two very negative posts on the same day.

You don't have to mind me, though. I'll get over it. Somehow.

...How was I going to deal with things again?

Signing off.

Dishonor and Shame?

Or did my pride just get hurt?

Doesn't matter to anyone. It was a stupid, stupid mistake to commit. A very minor mistake. It's very minor so it'll really be stupid of someone to make that kind of mistake. Something no one would expect me to do. I didn't study as well as I wanted to for a test, and then flunked by 2.5 points.

Okay. If you thought that it was something else, then you're horribly mistaken. And probably dirty-minded.

I slip up once for the first time, tell people the outcome and everyone related to me wants to disown me already. I'm thought of as irresponsible and having a messed-up judgment. They lose all trust and ignore me. I'm thinking no one at home will talk to me for more than a month because of that.

I'm exaggerating, but I'm still upset.

And my hands still aren't discolored and swollen enough. It's only because it's hard to wash off blood stains.

I'm still exaggerating but still really upset.

Signing off.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Our computer isn't working at home, so I'm here at a computer rental shop near the market. Pretty good equipment here, but I'm in a hurry to go home and get back to my homework and cellphone (I forgot it.) so this'll be quick.

From all these essay assignments I've done these past weeks I found out that I have a hard time concluding them. I think it even carries over to the way I blog.

So now I don't have time to finish this post. Next time.

See. I don't know how to state conclusions. Or write coherently under time pressure.

Signing off.

Friday, June 29, 2007

Good morning, readers. As I'm posting this, it's already around 12:20 am and I'm still finishing my homework. I've noticed that things at school are already in full swing. Thus the irregular sleeping patterns these days.

It's thrilling, though. Now that it's the last school day of the week, I feel like I could do all of my homework the whole Thursday night, thinking that I could finally relax after classes the next day. Then I realize that there's still a lot to do for the weekend.

So I should really continue with my homework now and post tomorrow instead.

Signing off.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Numerology Results

This has been going around blogs of people from school, so I took interest and tried it out. You could take the test here.




You entered: ****** **** ***** ****

There are 19 letters in your name.
Those 19 letters total to 67
There are 10 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:
Welsh Female Variant of Margaret - pearl - based on the abbreviation Meg.
Greek Female Pearl.

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 7

A Soul Urge number of 7 means:
With a number 7 Soul Urge you are very fond of reading, and retreating to periods of being alone and away from the disruptions of the outer world. You like to dream and develop you idealistic understandings, to study and analyze, to gain knowledge and wisdom. You may be too laid back and withdrawn to really succeed in the business world, and you will be much more comfortable in circumstances that are tolerant of your reserve, your analytical approach, and your desire to use your mind rather than your physical being.

You are very timid around people that you don't know very well, so much so at times that casual conversation and social situations can be strained. You tend to repress your emotions to the extend that some people have a good bit of difficult understanding you. You tend to be very selective with friends and you don't easily adapt to new environments or to new people very quickly.

The negative traits of the 7 include becoming too much the introvert and isolated from others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 6

An Inner Dream number of 6 means:
You dream of guiding and fostering the perfect family in the perfect home. You crave the devotion from offspring and a loving spouse. You picture yourself in the center of a successful domestic unit.




I find the first two numbers accurate, except that the negative traits of the Expression number haven't really surfaced. For the third one, I kind of agreed with it in my present, but I remembered that I'll be the one to experience childbirth pains when I start my own family. Well, it's too early to think about that part.

And my possible one-week hiatus caused by school will start now.

Signing off.

Food Science Student Cooks Radioactive Batch of Pancakes

Did you know that pancakes could be burnt and raw at the same time? Thankfully, they weren't this time. And they tasted okay.

Also, did you know that I'm still procrastinating even if it is the dusk of Sunday?

Signing off.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

You Can Learn How to Swim from Written Reports

I'm back, after another week of classes, requirements, runny noses, sneezing, headaches, sore throats, drowsiness and not posting. What's new?

Instead of volunteering to direct the Ramayana production for our class, I decided to help out with the script writing. At first I wanted to become the director of the play. Then I thought I wouldn't be able to be in charge of the whole class and not rush into such big projects while I'm still doubtful of my ability to lead. But I still wanted to contribute in the way the play would be presented, therefore my current position. And this is what I'm supposed to be working on right now instead of posting here.

Also, ever since I heard about a possible one-man show for Art Club members, I've been thinking of making the required 20-25 pieces for it. I just have two things to think about. Should I try this, even though I might not find enough time to finish the pieces because of the academic work I get from school? And if I do, what kind of artwork will it be? I could do lots of kinds, but I don't really have a media I stick to all the time. I don't even have any artwork I'd like to display right now. So it's another thing I might have to think about.

I got a good grade in my Filipino diagnostic essay. Not telling in case people are out there to kill me (or my pride). It was something I wasn't expecting because I only started writing 2 days before submission and I'm not that confident with writing in Filipino. I had to write it in English first then translate it. If I seem to be okay with writing stuff, why doesn't that skill carry over to my blogging?

If I've done my research on all the recent swimming competitions and ALL the winners in ALL events, will I finally learn how to swim properly?

But there's something extremely new that you'll find out now. I've got a cold. Again. It makes me not able to breathe, not want to talk, wipe my nose periodically and sleep on my homework at night. So kids, try to avoid getting sick. It'll make life hard to cope with.

Signing off.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Reconsideration

Okay, so I really might have been drunk (No, wait. I'm still underage.) when I thought about transferring my blog just a while ago. It’s true that I’ve been in a blogging rut lately, and haven’t been writing my posts with as much motivation as I used to. That’s why I want to start over, so that I could start with a new motivation, sort of.

But now that I think about it, I'm very attached to this blog. I hate the posts I wrote two years ago and how disorganized it has become now, but I can't seem to just leave all of these stuff I wrote.

Here comes the part I reminisce about the past. I know that you will find it very unusual that I would write something like this.

There were lots of things involved with this blog that kind of led to where I am now, and I can't just cast off. When I started this approximately 28 months ago, I thought I was the most technologically-advanced person my age at that time. While everyone at school limited themselves with Friendster and Y!M, I was figuring out how to write my posts well and customize my layout. Older people started telling me how "mature" I blogged, and I was proud of it. After a while, I found out that there were others who started before me. Then instead of aiming to be known as a prodigy at blogging, I aimed to be the best blogger I could be. There were a lot of times I was disheartened because other blogs owned by kids at high school were more popular than mine, but I kept into mind the readers and some web articles that inspired and encouraged me to keep on blogging.

End of the out-of-character portion of this post.

I can't imagine leaving all that behind. That would be like discarding memories spanning more than two years, all the inspiration I had to write posts, the feeling of accomplishment when I compose something coherent at the least, the excitement I felt whenever I find out I received a comment on an entry (popularity gained through blogging is considered only a bonus).Somehow I still want to start anew, meaning I'll have to work for my new blog to have the same stats, or even better, as the first one.

I could probably leave this one open and open another one here. I actually considered Wordpress because of the environment there, except I have to pay something so that I could make a custom layout and use it there. I might just have to get used to the intimidating XML here.

I don't know when these new changes will take place. I'm just certain that the definitely will sometime.

Signing off.

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Tentative Announcement of Transfer

I don't know whether I was drowsy or drunk when I thought about this, but I've decided to start a new blog. I felt that I had to start fresh again. Also, this blog has too many posts I don't even want to look at anymore like the ones I posted before high school. And the layout is out of hand already (or I'm really phobic of editing an XML template unlike the pure CSS templates in the old version of Blogger).

I hope I start it right when I transfer. And that everyone who reads this will continue reading the next one.

Hmmm... I forgot to post about this week. I'm not really in the mood right now to type about things like that. After dinner, or some other time.

Signing off.

Saturday, June 09, 2007

Well, well. Look whose decided to post something that was expected a few days ago when people were crazy about the start of classes, but was either too busy or lazy to type something within the week.

School has started. Well, yeah.

...

Ack. Usually I have lots to talk about the first week. This year I don't, oddly. Probably because it's almost the same way the last school year started. Getting lost in the lobby on the first flag ceremony, getting schedules and venues mixed up, get a little depressed about something, introduce yourself to the class, make a fool of yourself in front of the class and get relieved by the first weekend of the school year. That's almost always the way school starts, so there really isn't anything special I want to blog about it.

Or I might have just forgotten about school a little because of the weekend.

Oh, wait. I remember something interesting about last week. It was one of the riskiest things I've done in a while. I only signed up for one elective. By Thursday, I was already worried about not qualifying for it and having a very hard time looking for an elective I could live with that isn't full yet. Or worse, not get an elective at all. Well, that afternoon, I found out I was part of the top 20 who got into Food Science after taking the elimination test. What a relief.

And guess what? We have homework! Better get started before getting distracted by something like typing a post.

Signing off.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Intriguing. After being slightly insomniac the night before, waking up at around 4:30, lining up in a lot of insanely long queues in a sauna-like corridor and finding out my section (Potassium, which I have to get used to hearing and saying), I've finally accepted the reality that I'll be starting going to school next Monday.

And how am I going to conclude this?

I have no idea.

Signing off.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

I still can't believe I'm an incoming third year student already. I feel old thinking of that. And that I'm still too childish to be only 2 years from finishing high school. More so in the case of my chronological age. I just remembered that I'll be turning 15 on September. And fifteen sounds old to me already. Ah, the youth that slips past me, I wish I took more time to enjoy it.

Sure people tell me I act mature, but I think I still act like a ten year-old playing her own games and fooling around with everything I see. If adolescence is defined as being more conscious about peers and popularity, going out more with friends and, well you know the rest, I seem centuries away from that.

More on that next time, if I'm able to catch up on some sleep. Jigoku Shoujo 2 marathons at night are inadvisable for your health.

Signing off.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

I made a fatal mistake when I got home from the mall today. I left my iPod on the shelf in the living room, thinking that our beloved housemates, our uncle and his wife (we don't even call her our aunt) and that brat of a cousin, would be lazing around at her house for the night. While taking a shower, they arrived. When I was done, I came out to see that the slobs were feasting over the iPod, bashing the "useless" VGM, J-pop, J-rock, Eraserheads, Panic at the Disco, etc. songs I rated 3 stars up, and repeating the only Sitti song in there. WITHOUT *beep* PERMISSION.

In reaction to that violation, I slammed the door of my room and started kicking it, frustrated that I made such a stupid mistake like that. Our uncle's wife opened the door to my room WITHOUT *beep* KNOCKING and tried to piss me off a lot more by asking whether I wanted to hang my sister. Then she told me about our uncle borrowing the iPod and the value of sharing and anger management.

Just who the heck do they think they are? People who could use whatever they lay their eyes on and act all high and mighty lecturing anyone they please as if they're always right?

"We should get it back by around 12 o' clock" said the sister I allegedly tried to kill.

So, who am I going to murder now?

No, I'm not seriously going to kill them. I just feel too angry with them. I don't even want to go downstairs anymore. And I'm sanitizing the MP3 player when I get it back. IF I get it back.

Signing off.